I can’t believe my little baby turns 3 months old tomorrow.  I was so nervous about what our newborn experience would be like – would I have baby blues again?  Would A get used to becoming a big brother?  Will I be able to figure things out, a second time?  Baby C had his days and nights confused for weeks, most of the things I used to do to comfort A didn’t work for him, and sleep deprivation with a newborn and a toddler in the house was a whole new level of exhaustion for me.  But I didn’t have baby blues, A adjusted pretty fast to his new role, I got to know sweet baby C, and we all figured out how to sleep again.  All four of us are healthy, well taken care of, and most importantly – so loved.  J is the most incredible husband and dad, A is our little bff, and C – C is the sweetest, most perfect addition to our family.  We are complete, and I thank God over and over every day for this life.

Writing my silly daily notes of our newborn time together was very cathartic!  I hope that someone one day can benefit from my craziness, and read that part of my blog and see that it is okay to be confused, overwhelmed, sad, happy, and excited all at the same time.  It is bittersweet to watch my little baby sleep in his crib in his big boy pajamas and to see his special personality emerging.  I will cherish the memories of our first 3 months, and am excited to see what the future brings us.